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Happy birthday mom…

Happy Birthday mom

The days passing by and now it’s your birthday. I hope you are celebrating in style where ever you may be…and if Internet is something you can use where you are… My hope is that you will see this and understand how much I miss you and love you…




Inspiration? What is Inspiration for you and how do find inspiration? I know when i was young, around 16-19 years old I had no goals, no ambitions and without Inspiration. Now in my ”later” years I have thought about what makes me and other people feel inspiration. Mostly what inspires me, how have I found Inspiration to what I want to do. I have written a blog entry about how as a instructor or teacher can inspire their students, this entry is going to be more about how I find my Inspiration and hopefully maybe give you as a reader some tips on how you can go about to find Inspirations.

The most important tip I would give to anyone is to hang on to whatever you’ll be inspired of. I use myself as an example, because I always get tease because I am a big Jet Li, but I get so much out of having him as one my biggest source of inspiration that the ”teasing”(wich I am sure of is in good spirit) do not bother me. What I mean is, if it makes you stronger it don’t matter what other people think of it or what it is. As long it’s not something  illegal or disrespectful to other people.

For me Inspiration comes in different forms and shapes. For an example, a movie can be very inspiring just the same as music. I am very impressed by people who is efficient in their line of work or their hobby. I don’t need to have an interest in it too find Inspiration from it. As a friend use to say, a good song is a song, the same principle I use for Inspiration. A good practitioner is a good practitioner no matter what style, art, hobby or work he or she  practice.


There are a lot of movies that are Inspiring to me, like all of Jet Li movies, i have around 30 movies with Jet Li. So for Inspiration for my training, is Jet Li movies the best, movies like Fist of Legend, The Tai Chi Master and Romeo Must Die is movies that I really like with Jet li. I don’t know why, I’d really find energy from it. Other movies that I would truly recommend is Men of Honor and The Hurricane , they are both about struggle and based on a true story, and no matter how tough their life gets they keep on walking and they never give up. This is truly Inspiring to me, to see how hard some people struggle to get what they want.
Another movie that is really good and gives me hope about our civilisation is Hotel Rwanda , just watching the trailer on youtube gives me goose bumps and gets me in an emotional state.


Music for is as important for me as the air that i breath. A friend of mine wrote a blog entry about Inspirational music , i think what she is writing is worth to think about definitely.  To me music is a way to express myself or process a thought or feeling.
For training, it’s good to have a variety of music genre, so you don’t have angry music all the time or soft music all the time. I like the mix of it, but hey that is just me.


Even if my mom is gone, and I will never ever get to talk to her again, I find comfort and Inspiration in that she was the essence of a true fighter in my books. She fought the cancer in 1998 and beat it, at least we thought she beat it. In the spring of 2009 she was diagnosed with mestata cancer, and when the tumours was too much for her, after almost a year of fighting, she couldn’t hold on anymore. I belive it’s because of her will and love for her family that she fought the inevitable for so long. The pain she had, the way the chemotherapy made her feel, it is truly amazing on how much love she had for her family and when the doctors finally said they can’t do any more she quickly moved on because there was no need for enduring the pain.
I stand in awe to her, if I could be half as strong as her I feel that I will be able to move mountains.

Then there is all the friends and people you meet in your daily life,  I feel so fortunate to have really good friends that cares and Inspires me. I am not going to name names but those I speak about know who they are. I can not thank you enough for your support. To have friends that can Inspire and make you feel that you could go anywhere if you just set your mind to it are invaluable…

This was a little about Inspiration…


00.00 two months ago, changed my life forever…

Wow the time goes so fast, when i think back on that time, two months ago…I still can’t comprehend what really happened, even if I understand intellectually I still haven’t understand it emotionally. 2 months ago, my mom passed away in cancer, after almost a year fighting the cancer cells off. It does not pass one single day that I don’t think of my mom…

I miss her so much, it’s hard to describe how much i miss her. But one thing that i have noted, is that I constantly say, ohh I remember how my mom used to do or say… This is not that I did to that extent that I do now…

In a way, this blog is for her, i know, she probably can’t read this and she is probably not that interested in FMA(Filipino Martial Arts), but since that is a big part of my life i think she would like to read it, or read my thoughts. If she can, i am not saying that she can, but a part of me really hopes that she can, hope that she finds some joy in it.

A co-worker told me, that the grieving process takes at least one year. Because you have to pass the times that used to be common to the person who passed away. I think, since I didn’t live at home the last 8 years, the worst days will be around the family gathering times. Such as Christmas, midsummerseve, eastern and more…

I miss you so much mom – R.I.P … <3