00.00 two months ago, changed my life forever…

Wow the time goes so fast, when i think back on that time, two months ago…I still can’t comprehend what really happened, even if I understand intellectually I still haven’t understand it emotionally. 2 months ago, my mom passed away in cancer, after almost a year fighting the cancer cells off. It does not pass one single day that I don’t think of my mom…

I miss her so much, it’s hard to describe how much i miss her. But one thing that i have noted, is that I constantly say, ohh I remember how my mom used to do or say… This is not that I did to that extent that I do now…

In a way, this blog is for her, i know, she probably can’t read this and she is probably not that interested in FMA(Filipino Martial Arts), but since that is a big part of my life i think she would like to read it, or read my thoughts. If she can, i am not saying that she can, but a part of me really hopes that she can, hope that she finds some joy in it.

A co-worker told me, that the grieving process takes at least one year. Because you have to pass the times that used to be common to the person who passed away. I think, since I didn’t live at home the last 8 years, the worst days will be around the family gathering times. Such as Christmas, midsummerseve, eastern and more…

I miss you so much mom – R.I.P … <3


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